far west
Im Alyssa 16- Washington State.
I love the moutains and summer. My friends are my other half, and couldnt make it without them. Cunt is my favorite word and I love cucumbers... I think I know everything, but in reality I dont have a clue. And this here is a snap shot of my unyet figured out mind.
I hope you enjoy!
WHY THE FUCK:
YOU ARE IN MY HEAD FUCKING 24/7.
WHY. Why did I ever have to meet you?
YOU HAVE RUINED MY HAPPINESS.
ITS BEEN SO ALONG. BUT NOTHING HAS CHANGED. Just another God damn night falling asleep with you in mind. AND TOMORROW IS GOING TO BE THE SAME. Waking up and there’s you. SWEET. LEAVE MY CONSCIENCE. Please?
PERSONAL-
It’s so pathetic how everyone is wanting to grow up. The more I grow up the more I frown upon myself. Sitting here in my own self pity, crying in confusion about growing up. I’m almost seventeen, and when I look into the future I see a black hole. I have no fucking idea what I want to do, and being adult is right around the corner . Why can’t life just be simple? Like when the cute boy across the table said you were cute and that the extent of it? Now that same boy ten years later asks to have sex? Or I mean I being a hypocritical bitch but then there is the peer pressure of alcohol. I can’t lie. I use to think it was the coolest thing around and envied anyone who did. So I fell in to that. The past couple of months I have stop and realized the people that actually cared about me were worried. Which was an eye opener. So all in all, growing up is full of frustration.
You piss me off.
